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Narcissistic Personality Disorder

I recently revisited a newspaper that I collected long time ago.

It's about Narcissistic Personality Disorder. The more I read about this article, the stronger I get associations to this disorder. 

Desonta Holder wrote this article I think. (dholder@MiamiHerald.com)

Here is what the article says about the disorders by Dr. Samek, an executive board member of the Dade County Psychological Association.

"This relatively newly defined disorder first appeared in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders in 1980 and the diagnostic criteria was revised in 1987 and 1994. Dr. WIlliam Samek, a clinical and forensic psychologist in Miami, explains the disorder:

1. All about me: It's a character disorder in which a person tends to: have an inflated snese of self-importance; be preoccupied with thoughts of his or her great success, power, brilliance, or beauty; believe that he or she is special, unique or better than everyone else; desire, expect, or demand excessive admiration from others; have a sense of entitlement; exploit and take advantage of others; lack empathy and emotional connection to others; and be arrogant and act superior.

2. Deep down: People with narcissistic personalities, in spite of their thoughts and behaviors, unconsciously feel inferior and inadequate. 

3. Successful treatment: Many experts believe narcissistic people can never be successfully treated. In fact they can be successfully treated. Treatment usually needs to be compelled, is long term (several years), and often requires both a mental health professional with special expertise in treating narcissistic personalities and another person or institution that has the power to require that the narcissistic person completes treatment. Treatment is usually best done in group therapy with other individuals who have narcissistic personality problems.

4. Dysfunctional childhood: Narcissistic personality disorders are often caused by poor parenting and a dysfunctional childhood. The parents of a narcissist either overly spoiled and pampered the child or they were overly harsh and abusive. Either extreme may cause a child to develop a narcissistic personality.

5. Mild to severe: Narcissistic personality disorder comes in all levels of intensity, from very midl to very severe. Mild forms are attracted to and may become leaders in industry and government. "

As I mentioned at the beginning of this journal, I believe I have this disorder. I need to figure out ways to cure.

Quotes

People who fight fire with fire usually end up with ashes.

- Abigail Van Buren

I usually argue with other people and have been trying to do it. As Ms. Van Buren said, almost always I ended up with nothing.

Live with passion. – Anthony Robbins

My life has been dull and immature and boring. I haven't lived my life with passion. I haven't made a great challenge for myself. I need to start living not dying. 

A wise man makes opportunities than he finds. – Francis Bacon

I shall make opportunities from now on. Opportunities can only be made for the folks who endeavor their whole heart into something that they are passionate about.

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About me

I realized that I have a tremendous rejection against women in terms of getting ahead of themselves, especially they are not qualified in the position to say or do things. 

Today I was working as a explaining person at the bus. Nari came over and left a sticker without saying anything. Immediately, I wondered if she wants to control again because I went through many occasions that she expressed either consciously or non-consciously. I was having fun and making a good conversations with other crews until the incident. 

After all, I went up to her, asking her if she wanted me to hand the sticker over to the little girl who stopped by with her mother. I was angry. 

I didn't know how to respond to such a behavior so I just talked about her behavior to my other crews. I always try not to talk behind someone's back but for this occasion I didn't want it to be passed. 

The main question here is why I have felt so strong against women who expressed control toward me: Nari is one and Kelly is another. Is it because of their past behavior, working like an accumulated frustration?

I need to learn how to be like Jesus in this kind of situations. I need wisdom and knowledge. 

New beginnning starts today

I started writing and spending time with God starting today.
I made a covenant with God saying that I shall spend an hour everyday with Him. I started today with a prayer.

Things that matter most must never be at the mercy of things that matter least. – Johann Wolfgang von Goethe