no progress in life?

I don't know since when my study has been unproductive. Was that the time that I started to masturbate? What has ruined my life? Pornography? What really caused my life leading this destructive way? Please someone tell me the source of every disaster happening in my life right now. There's something that does not satisfy my life. I have been living a dissatisfied life; I want a close relationship but every time I tried I failed; now I'm seeping the negative consequences of my "attempt" for relationship. Girls started looking at me in a different way than before.